As all of you ‘regular readers’ know, it wouldn’t be a complete week without a little photo shoot with at least one of the girls! So yesterday I decided to put a big ole bow on Ryder and get a few.
Because let’s face it- I don’t want to have to remember this time, but its going to be a major part of our life from here on out, so she might as well have some cute pics to remember!
This morning we were woken up so early to get blood work, x-rays, scans, etc. Poor Ryder, because her blood doesn’t circulate properly, doesn’t bleed well so its always a huge ordeal to get even a small amount of blood.
I said this yesterday, but there are times I think that I’m being dramatic about this surgery. I feel like maybe people think its not a big deal or that I’m making it into something its not. But yesterday I talked to the surgeon and I told him that. He said I was not being dramatic that this is a huge surgery for an adult, much less a baby girl. But in saying that, he has been a pediatric heart surgeon for about 20 years and he said that he does this surgery every day and it will be over soon. He was so nice and so reassuring. Ryder seriously couldn’t be in better hands.
The next week or so will be so hard. Seeing her on life support after the surgery, seeing her not able to move, seeing her with tubes running from everywhere… it will simply be hard. I feel like I have already aged about 20 years or more in the past week. MY heart has hurt so much that I’m starting to think I might need a chest xray soon!
But all that being said… I am filled with a wonderful joy. I am filled with a wonderful peace. The ONLY reason I feel these things is because of Jesus and the power of prayer. God promises us so much- He promises to give peace, He promises to give us rest, He promises to never leave us.
“He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds.” Psalm 147:3 NLT
You will keep in perfect peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you! (Isaiah 26:3 NLT)
Never in my life have I realized and seen what an amazing community I am in as a Christian. We have people praying from all over the US and even other countries. Thanks to the internet (which can sometimes be such a curse) and the sweetest people on earth, I have been FLOODED with cards, emails, calls, texts, comments on here and on facebook. This has been the hardest and yet most amazing experience of my life. It is all just so surreal. My in real life friends, Amber, Emily D, Emily W and Kristen, have all blogged to ask for prayer. Kelly from Kelly’s Korner did the same. I have people on facebook tagging me in posts to get the word out to pray to their many friends on there. Its just incredible what God can do. He is using blogs and facebook as a platform to show HIS work and HIS love. Amazing!
So, for the last time before the surgery- THANK YOU. I appreciate you all so much. The kind words from strangers encouraging me, the people putting their location on her prayer map, and most of all the prayers. The power of prayer is amazing…. the power of Jesus Christ is indescribable. Thank you all for praying.
Ryder’s surgery is scheduled for 7am tomorrow morning. It will be a 4-6 hour surgery. Pray for Dr. Mendeloff’s hands. Pray for peace. Pray for a quick recovery. And most of all, pray that Ryder’s story touches and encourages people to come to Christ- the true Healer.