So I had hyped myself up thinking that because we are coming up on the one year mark of  Ryder’s surgery I’d be in this major funk and would be weepy and sad about it.

But, truth is, I’ve barely thought about it.

It’s funny how life gets in the way of things.

We have been going non-stop lately and I haven’t been able to pause and think much about how hard last year was. And honestly, Ryder is doing so well right now that it is hard to believe the things we went through and had to endure.

When I do have a moment of quiet to think, I’m distracted by other things like loneliness or sadness over things going on around me in other people’s lives.

Although I’m not struggling with insecurities and identity as much as I was, I am still struggling with loneliness. I desperately miss my friends and church and life in Paris. I know it will get better as soon as I find people here, but it has been hard.

The kids are my main distractions though, and for that I am so grateful.

Ryder is walking around the furniture like crazy and starting to take steps out on her own. I can’t even believe she will be walking soon. She is Rory’s biggest fan and thinks her big sister is HILARIOUS, which is true. She is eating pretty good and hopefully the bottle will be going away very soon. I can’t wait to have that extra cash to throw into something else like bills. ha! She is saying more words now- “dis” (this), “doooh” (dog), her version of bottle, dada, momma, no, stop, don’t, “Jers” (Jersey), “ni-ni” (night night)… and more that I can’t think of right now.

Rory is just so big. I can’t get over it. She’s looking so tall and old all of a sudden. She’s still smart as a whip. She NEVER forgets ANYTHING. She’s also so hysterical. Some of my favorite things she says right now are- “I go do ____ tomorrow.”. Anything she wants to do, she says she’s going to do it tomorrow very matter of factly. “What’s happenin’?”, “Whatcha doin’?”, “Where?”, “What’s that?”, “What’s her/him name?” are CONSTANTLY asked around here. We recently started rewarding her with money to put in her bank so that when it fills up she can go pick something out. So, she now constantly asks, “Wherrr my quarter at?!”, whenever she does something she thinks is worthy of a reward. It has actually been working out really well. Soon I will do a whole post of just Rory-isms.

And, I’m glad to report that Rory is this close to being potty trained. Today she went the entire day without going in her pull-up at school. She loves her “pannies” and thinks she has to wear them at home now so that has been such a plus.

And if she is wearing “pannies” then sister has to wear them too.

Hope y’all had a great day! Tomorrow I will post all about our week and try and catch up more.

Tonight I shall go to bed because it has been an EXHAUSTING day of driving, car buying, and more driving.

But, man, I love my new ride.

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