I am laying in bed watching the TV with a smile on my face because I ROCKED IT today.
Rory actually slept last night, HALLELUJAH!, and I woke up feeling refreshed and hopeful. There just isn’t anything like 5 hours of straight sleep that will perk a girl up!
My kids were cooperative, obedient, and played SO WELL together the entire day. What the what?! Miracle. They WANTED to play in their playroom together. I actually got to kinda watch Kelly and Michael. AND I had TWO phone conversations longer than two seconds.
Holla, kids, holla.
As if all of that weren’t blissful enough, they actually went down for a nap within five minutes of each other and slept 2 1/2 hours straight. TWO AND A HALF HOURS OF COMPLETE SILENCE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAY, PEOPLE! I got a nap AND a for real, non-mom shower!
When they woke up we went straight outside (we spent much of the morning outside too because it was the most gorgeous fall day) and painted pumpkins. They were so excited and had the most fun, and so did I.
Ryder, my little priss, decided she’d rather paint herself some lipstick than paint the pumpkin.
We stayed outside for two hours and then we went to church so I’m pretty sure they were WORN OUT tonight, which explains the easier-than-normal bedtime.
That’s the thing about motherhood- sometimes it can be so extremely bipolar. You go from miserably lonely, tired, and fed up to blissfully happy and content within a day. And I do believe that kids, especially 4 and under, are the most bipolar beings on earth. I think that might be why it is so hard to be a mom. You have these little people that go from extreme happiness to EXTREME temper tantrums within about a minute of each other.
But I will sit back and watch some Duck Dynasty and be happy with the amazingness of today and hope tomorrow is the same.
What I need to learn to do, though, is be content in the not-so-great days. To still be able to see the light, to be able to see the reasons I’m a stay-at-home-mom. That’s the goal. Being content everyday, not just the fun, well-behaved days. Because, let’s face it, life is NOT all the time fun. There are times that it gets ugly, but God calls us to lean on Him and still be content.
My goal as a mom should be to let go of those moments of discontent and to just lean on Grace to get me through the toughest days.
Most of the time I am my own worst enemy in this area. I am constantly comparing myself to others, constantly doubting my purpose, constantly fighting against God’s will for my life. I never ever dreamed of being a stay-at-home mom growing up. I thought I’d have some super career and travel all over. But life changes, and God leads you down different paths because He knows what is best for you/me. And if God wants me to be a stay-at-home mom, then I should be embracing it and be content that He has a plan for me and right now that plan includes the “trenches of motherhood”.
This will be one of the hardest things for me to “let go” of, but I really want to let go of my discontent nature and be content, every day, with the life God has given me. I know I am so blessed and I want to embrace my blessing with a content spirit and bless God with my life.
This is my 14th post in the series of Letting Go. You can start at the beginning here.
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