“When doubts filled my mind, your comfort gave me renewed hope and cheer.” Psalms 94:19
“Your promise revives me; it comforts me in all my troubles.” Psalms 119:50
“God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.” Matthew 5:4
I have been praying these verses over and over for my friend, Rachel and her husband Eric. Sweet little Weston that I have asked you to pray for passed away on Friday and it has been such a devastating roller coaster for them. God is the ultimate healer, and for whatever reason chose this path for that family. I know with every fiber in me that He is good. Who knows for sure why He chose this- maybe because he knew they couldn’t bare another day seeing their baby so sick- but His plan is perfect.
Its hard to not feel guilty on so many levels right now. Rory is and has always been such a perfect baby and so healthy. She has cut two teeth and has a nasty cold right now and it has been many sleepless nights. Just like any other mother I have thought, said out loud, and cried for just ONE night of uninterrupted sleep. And yet- how dare I wish that when I have a personal friend who would give up everything for just ONE MORE restless night with her baby boy. And so many people I know and friends of mine can’t have a child and have tried for years- they long for a sleepless night.
Today is the funeral for Weston. I cannot fathom the sadness and devastation of having to go home to a fully decorated and stocked nursery with no baby. I’m praying for God’s comforting arms to be wrapped around them today and the days, weeks, months, and years to come.